I was 10. Confronted with a new situation, words, action and behavior I did not understand. I felt like my heart was getting ripped out. I felt confused and scared. I knew it was wrong. Everything changed that day. I had no control over what was happening, but something in me was not just going to sit still and watch this battle unfold over many years.
I chose to become a fighter that day. Little did I know that this was only the first of many battles to come. I did not ask for them and I did not look for them. I did not invite them. For many years, including during adulthood, I fought abuse and with the help of my God’s power, strength, wisdom and intervention, I was a warrior who was not going to get defeated. I survived emotional, psychological, verbal, sexual, spiritual, physical and financial abuse in different stages of life and in different situations.
Abuse is sick. It is twisted. It is complex. It feels like prison. It is painful torture. It is a game of power and control. It is a pattern. It is push and pull. Abuse escalates and intensifies over time, particularly in domestic situations. It alters the reality of the victim against their will. It changes the victim. It traps the victim. Abuse is usually covert. Abusers don’t just make a mistake. They don’t just have a bad day. The issues and roots of abuse are much more complex. Unfortunately, most people don’t have a clue about what abuse actually is, how it happens, why people abuse others, how to deal with abusive situations, how to help abuse victims and how to confront abusers.
Abuse does not define me. It does not define you. While the emotional scars will stay with me forever, they remind me daily of the deep wounds and trauma I suffered. But they also remind me of how strong I am, how much I have overcome and how my cup now overflows despite all of it. I am rising again and I am able to live my life to the fullest, thriving in many ways. And I know this is possible for you as well.
To all currently suffering in abusive situations and to those, who have survived abuse: DO NOT GIVE UP. KEEP FIGHTING. YOU ARE NOT ALONE [Psalm 23]. THERE IS HOPE. YOU ARE WORTHY TO LIVE YOUR LIFE TO THE FULLEST. YOU WILL RISE AGAIN!
I am not only a survivor of abuse, but I am also a warrior, who refuses to stay down and a thriver of life who has risen again - flying high. I was rescued and I have been healed. And I believe, you can be, too. If you are looking for resources, help or simply words to describe what you are experiencing, please check out this website and connect with us through social media.
With all my love,